I’ve been feeling restless lately. It happens every year around this time – I know for a fact there are at least two similar posts in the archives. This year I’m coming up with a list of things I could have done differently as to not end up chained to a desk for eight hours a day. I could have moved to NYC after high school like I really wanted to, but my parents and a teacher did a good job of talking me out of it. I could have moved after college too. I could have not gotten into a very long relationship that put the idea of moving in and settling down into my brain. And as much as I love my house, I could have not settled down all by myself.
I’m realizing that I set goals for myself that take time to achieve and then keep me wrapped up for years. My goal throughout college was to start a career so I would never have to work retail again. And then I wanted to purchase a house, so I could build equity and have a space that was all my own. I also started an organization that caused me to have obligations for months in advance. Now I stay away from any sort of commitment because I’m already feeling tied down.
I know that there is always time to change my path and do something different. And I have always said I wanted to have many careers throughout my life. Right now I feel very stuck having to come into the office every day to do work I don’t really enjoy. I’m working on a career change, but it will take a year or two before I can leave office life behind.
In the mean time I’m very antsy to drive my little Scion across the country. I feel like it will be a much needed break from the monotony. I’ve been waiting for a partner in crime and to save some cash, but I don’t think either will happen soon enough. I may set out on the expedition alone and just let my credit card take a beating. I’m usually rushing full speed toward a goal, so it would be a challenge to see if I could take a week or two and stop to smell the roses.
So yeah…that’s what I’ve been thinking.05.27.10 in life